My First Time

ran across a store downtown today called "incahoots". AMAZING vintage.

here's what i got:

(gagalite)

bustier

ring

sequined circle scarf

tunic sweater with sequined neckline 

buying things makes me happy.

vanity can be beautiful, too

 

  

  

40 days and 40 nights

the first day of lent.

HA! my plan was to give up carbs; do 50 sit-ups, 25 leg lifts, and 15 push-ups a day; drink only ice water, unsweeted iced tea, and coffee; cut down to one sweet a week; paint one new piece a week; and cigs only when i'm drinking.

i ate my weight in deep dish pizza and pasta today. i also had cookies. how? i don't even usually eat cookies.

we'll officially start tomorrow.

awkward moment of the day

a coked out teenager just came to my door asking for "sponsorship" in a public speaking tournament. what?


this guy was wearing a shirt with a mushroom and the words "i'm a fun guy" on it...and his pinky nails were a little longer than i would've liked.

here i am, greeting him with a mudmasque on. sweatpants and all.


get the fuck away from me.

another one bites the dust

i knew you'd fuckin' cave for facebook

yeah well...shutup!
mmhmmm...i think you just wanted to stalk me more efficiently
um. you added me
you didn't have to accept
:rolleyes:
it's true

and the award for biggest douche goes to...

my father for deleting his first born from facebook.


you fucking bastard.

your power level is over 9000

the amistad slave revolt happened on my birthday.

Gaultier's spring 2010 couture line

honest to God truth: i was so overcome by glam that i threw up.


seriously.


rushed to the bathroom and yakked all over the place. ugh. it was just too much.

diamonds are forever...so's herpes...

this whole marriage/baby thing has gotten completely out of control. we're entering my 21st year of life and already half of my graduating class has either gotten knocked up or engaged. more power to 'em; those are huge, life-changing decisions. i'm not ready yet, is all. having trouble understanding why they would want to do such a thing (so early). time to make another list. this time, we're making a record of all the babies and weddings for 2010.

1. cicely - pregnant
2. sypmhony - engaged
3. yvette - newborn
   
4. keidra - engaged
5. arnold - engaged
6. amanda - pregnant
7. lauren - pregnant
8. trakalya - newborn (2nd)
9. amber lynn - expecting
10. ibn - newborn
11. juanita - preggers
12. kiara allen - newbie
    

must-see movies for 2010

• the holy mountain
• paris is burning
• scanners 
• the phantom of liberty 
• zardoz
• dr. caligari
• begotten
• ex-drummer
• thriller: a cruel picture 
• the cremaster series
• soylent green
• the man who laughed
• antichrist (2009)
• schizopolis
• oh, woe is me
• possession
  
• my own private idaho 
• avatar 
• waking life
• valerie and her week of wonders
• wings of desire
• phantom of the paradise
• the science of sleep
• pink flamingos
• they live
• mulholland dr.
• tales from the gimmli hospital
• pierrot le fou
• wild at heart
• santa sangre
• crash (1996) 
• week end
• zed and two noughts
• the saddest music in the world
• doubt 
• heavenly creatures 
• synedoche, new york
• the 5,000 fingers of dr. t 
• m. butterfly
• tron (2010) 
• made in u.s.a.
• naked lunch
• the brood
• leaving las vegas
• eagle vs. shark
• rachel getting married
• memento
• inland empire
• the milky way
• frozen river
• the crying game
• the warriors
• happiness 
• melvin and howard
• dead heat
• critters
• maitress 
• hour of the wolf
• nikita
• repo man
• the honeymoon killers
• creepshow
• the rocketeer
• klute 
• short cuts
• masculin feminin 
• shock wave
• paper moon
• the discreet charm of the bourgeoisie
• who can kill a child?
• the wolfman (2010)
• american gigolo 
• fargo 
• shutter island
• oldboy
• brazil
• delicatessen
• fat girl
• elephant
• mystics in bali 
• the city of lost children
• wedding trough
• an andalusian dog
• pi: the number of chaos
• arizona dream
• black moon
• brand upon the brain
• kamakaze girls
• trainspotting
• full metal jacket
• the audition

more to come

i'm getting too old for this shit.

i had always hoped i'd bruise my pelvis doing something more productive than snowboarding.

first time on the slopes and i have a fairly substantial injury. after much convincing, i was rushed to flagstaff medical centre in an ambulance.

ugh. this is my life. say hello to more medical bills.

not to mention, what usually hits as a dull pang in the back of my mind is at the forefront these last few weeks. my insecurity is maddening. what in the hell is going on?

contents of my purse:

"soulcraft" by bill plotkin
a tiny vibrator
red lipstick
a flashlight
knife w/sheath
expired work ID
ipod
vicodin

i'm officially a class act.

who will save your soul?

I'M NOT FUCKING DONATING TO THE HAITIAN RELIEF EFFORT, OKAY!?

now get the hell out of my inbox.

do you like cheese?

...i do.

CHILLAY CHEESE, NUKKA!

"stare into the abyss. make IT blink first."

too often i look at the upcoming birthdays on my facebook home page and think to myself "wow. you did not age well. you may wanna work on that". superficial, i know....but let's be real, i'm no spring chicken either. i look about six years older than i am and, considering just how young i am, that's not a great look. there are so many people in my friends list who were adorable children that mutated into "strangers". gross. step your life game up.

let's start over.

my theme for 2010 is going to be "effortless". 2009 was all about not being "bothered"-HA! as if that worked out. so let's reconsider 2010. instead of focusing on being or not being something, i'm going to relax and just be. instead of stalking people who ignore me, i'm going to let the pieces fall as they may. no more energy is to be directed to the cray centres of my brain. no more man-drama. no more girl-drama. quit stirring the pot and put down your spoons; you'll feel more full with your hands free.

"LIFE GETTING TOUGH. MEANS GOD IS AFRAID OF YOUR PROGRESS."

-courage wolf

This Then

by Charles Bukowski

it's the same as before
or the other time
or the time before that.
here's a cock
and here's a cunt
and here's trouble.

only each time
you think
well now I've learned:
I'll let her do that
and I'll do this,
I no longer want it all,
just some comfort
and some sex
and only a minor
love.

now I'm waiting again
and the years run thin.
I have my radio
and the kitchen walls
are yellow.
I keep dumping bottles
and listening
for footsteps.

I hope that death contains
less than this.

astrology corner

The Year Of The Snake

People born in the Year of the Snake are deep. They say little and possess great wisdom. They never have to worry about money; they are financially fortunate. Snake people are often quite vain, selfish, and a bit stingy. Yet they have tremendous sympathy for others and try to help those less fortunate. Snake people tend to overdo, since they have doubts about other people's judgment and prefer to rely on themselves. They are determined in whatever they do and hate to fail. Although calm on the surface, they are intense and passionate. Snake people are usually good-looking and sometimes have marital problems because they are fickle. They are most compatible with the Ox and Rooster.

that's right, i'm vain, stingy, and i don't know when to quit. get with this.

forget about the text. this is my life in photos..

NEW YEAR'S
ben and nick's/lovemakers show/ihop

  

 

ROAD TRIP TO BELLEMONT, AZ

It's a Christmas Miracle!

usually, i play a game called "endless loaded questions" with my family around the goose. this year i decided to do things a little differently...a sunny day at the beach with a man as far from my bloodline as possible.

here's the day in photos:

at the beach...

studied the SHAMELESS commandments...

...then we rocked the night away.

behold, chris's awesome vocal stylings!

x-mas (also known as "the day after") was fuckin' epic. wrecked the wii with audra,  scored some awesome gifts, and now we're rounding out the evening with the newest harry potter release. life is good.

shticks road-rage signs, frangelico flavoured coffee, a giant candy cane, and gelt from audra!

O-SOME feather earrings from janesa!

all in all, i'd have to say that christmas and x-mas were pretty rad.

Azizi's Last Night in California

it seems i must contain my excitement to have entered the blogworld...

right now, my newest obsession, azizi umi, is packing her bags for an early flight to philly tomorrow. i swear to you, i've never met anyone else (in my same economic class) with this many clothes. a rival of closet-space for sure.

"does anyone consume as much as i do?"

pandora is playing my heart songs right now. tori amos? fiona apple? erykah badu? leslie feist? hell fucking yes.